week 35

Dear Baby Hercules,

You are now the weight of a honey dew melon.. I don't know how to pick out a ripe melon either so it has not relieved my previous fears from last week about the cantaloupe.

Now that it is QUITE apparent I am pregnant and not on the line of is she pregnant or has she just had a big dinner, people are considerably braver about asking about you. They ask if this is my first and when I say no they immediately ask how old are the other two? And when I tell them the usual response follows the lines of "you are crazy" or "you will be busy". The latter response just a nicer way to say the first. Usually I laugh it off. I feel like we can handle it.

Usually.

But today was one of "those days". Those days when everything goes wrong... I cleaned up one gross mess after another... There were boo boos to kiss and dinners to prepare.. the to do list kept growing along with my stress level. And in one second I became very scared. What am I going to do with three? How am I going to handle it? I felt on the verge of tears as I read your brother and sister their bedtime story and tucked them into bed. But then as I was giving them their good night kisses they both hugged me and said " I love you Mommy". I realized something.

Yes our house will be chaotic sometimes. There will be nights when there will be endless messes to clean. Nights when all of you kids will be crying at once. Nights when all of you will need mommy at the same time. And yes things might get very very busy. But we have a family that loves each other. You have a Daddy who loves your mommy so much he heard the stress in her voice tonight and bought her a special dinner. And who after a very long work day finished cleaning one of those epic messes.

So you will not have the quietest house on the block. You will have to learn to sleep through noise. But let me assure you it will be good noise. Happy noises. Sure it will be a little crazy. But it's a good kind of crazy.

We love you Hercules,

Mommy

PS

I put a picture of Daddy in this post too. For two reasons

1. He is handsome

2. I didn't have time to take a picture so I had to steal this off a friend's facebook.